No better, but no option

First, I must say thank you to those of you that quickly sent emails and texts after my last post.  I am super appreciative of those that reached out; Friday was definitely a dark day….and it lasted all weekend long.  I am not yet “over” the issue I wrote about in my last post, but I know I cannot change this person or her negative perception of me. 

I have spent nearly zero time with this woman in the brief time we have known each other, but because of the loved ones we have in common, we are tied together.  She knows almost nothing of my life, has never met my family, but more importantly, will not be going away.

So my choice is to accept that this is a person who will teach me a great deal about personal qualities and attributes I do not want to display towards others.  It makes me more aware of her perspective and imagine, “How would I feel if I were in her place?”, even when she’s taken a jab at me and I don’t want to consider any feelings but my own.

So I am no better today than before, but I have no option except to fix my perception – and decide that I’m okay.